Nightmare, My ex is back at work JE. Caught him staring at me. disturbed me a little. Even though i spent a big part of my life with him I just don't want to see him at work anymore. It doesn't hurt me as i ended the relationship he just scares me and I've worked there alot longer and enjoy it, im not leaving. I just wish i could turn back time and i cant so why do i better saying it.
I'm going to try and turn over a new leaf. Summer is coming (hope we get some in England)! and summer is the time to start new and feel good about yourself. The sunshine always makes me feel better and i'll have my mams shoulder to cry on when she comes here tomorrow! Staying away from men, i just always get hurt but then i think to myself a man that truly wanted to be with me wouldn't hurt me, he would make sure that he protected me and looked after me, a man who wants to be with someone would move the earth for them. The men that have hurt me have been given to me for a reason, i think in my heart its to make me stronger and appreciate the One when he comes my way, to see who he is and love him more.
That's what i think and that's what makes the hurt i feel like a test to make me stronger.
Maybe I'm just crazy. x