JE has been telling people that he slept with my sister at xmas, I don't believe him at all but this has really upset more than anything he has ever said to me. He's poisonous.
Both JE and JR have started seeing new people, looks like the good person is left behind again. JE's is all about sex which he admits but JR is keeping quiet about who he's seeing, due to the fact that I think I will know the person. I honestly dont actucally want to know as i will be the one that will get hurt by finding it out. Im still finding it really hard getting over the last couple of months, i havent had the best of times as everyone knows. I really did fall for JR and I will never forgive myself for it and causing myself all of the upset and hurt. This is something that I will never forget and I will never get involved with anyone who I work with ever again.
Things have calmed down at work but people are still trying to cause trouble, hopefully it wont go anywhere. I just want everyone to leave me alone to get back to my quiet little life.
Everytime I get my heart broken i always think that it wont hurt as much but i'm always wrong.
I remember the 1st time I had it broken, i was 17. I was had been seeing Alan for about 4 months, we had a good little relationship until i went to stop with my man in Dubai, got a phone call from a friend saying they she had seen him kissing my freind in a club. I was heart broken. I did love him and i had let him ruin the very little time i had with my parents and i'll never forget that. When I look back now i was in pain but it didnt last long - i moved on to someone else. Over the years that followed I kind of turned to stone, I wasnt very nice to some of the men I was seeing so I think this is my payback, my Karma.
I do believe in fate and destiny so my life will go the way it is suppose to one day, I'll find my path to follow in the end. Everything will be ok for me. I know it will be.